Been thinking about thayn and everyone affected all day

Love my co workers and Jed  so kind to me

I LOVE Maddie and Kat SO MUCH hahahah they're my favorite people in my life rn. I laugh so much with them

Style guide

Stake social, wanted to be social but ended up hanging out with Ryan and Jacob haha. 

Cards with Jennie mads Jacob and Ryan. It actually sucked

Got to go grocery shopping

Texted tanner all day, going to devo with him tomorrow 

Sunday the 15th of May

I got to go to ward council today. I am glad I don't have to go often, I don't feel like I was much help there. I am grateful for Kat today because Leah is gone; Mikayla is always with Collin; Maddie and Jennie are fighting so she's been my person. Maddie has been too but she's just been sad. I have enjoyed getting close to them. :) 

Church was intense. I spoke about service and was SO NERVOUS up there and could barely function jaha  people were really kind to me afterwards thankfully. 

I also taught family history class. It was kind of a train wreck but what do ya do. I just love doing family history :) I love the gospel. 

I got to go visiting teaching with Kat and then my home teachers (Dallis and Madison) came. 

I made an awesome quesadilla and am watching the Best two years. Later tonight I am running the Family Hosptey activity.  Busy Sunday :)

Tonight I called grandma and chatted with her a bit. She's so kind for being interested in my life. I also got to skype mommy which I always love. It'll be fun to see her this weekend. 

I hosted the family history party with Adam. Not a huge turn out but we were able to focus in on people and help Maddie Seth and Jacob find temple work! :) I was chatting with Broana and Stephanie and was loving talking to them so I followed them to their apartment and was there for like 4 hours hahaha laughing so much. I love them!! And I love that Stephanie really knows Jen :) I am going to hang out with them more. 

I came home to Maddie and Jennie hanging out in my room and waiting for me haha. I am glad they are getting along now cause I can't live that double sided life. 

I found out thayn attkins committed suicide tonight. My heart is heavy. I want my life to be changed by this. I want to be more aware and also make a difference in people's life; a reason to keep trying. 

My heart breaks for Robert and their friends. I hope this experience can bring them to the truth and strengthen them. 

"Each life that touches ours for good" 

Lately I

Leah is in Norway to pick up Alyssa from the mission! It's so fun for her :) 

What a sweetie. Mikayla took my phone and finished skyping her while I went on my date with Ben. Who is Ben? Ben worked with me on my first day of work as a project manager. We went on a hike to the Teton dam with a group. It was kind of weird but pretty fun haha. We ate at Applebee's afterwards. Ben and me competed drinking the most lemonade. We both ended up sick hahaha and a lot of leftovers which was perfect because I haven't grocery shopped in a while haha. 

It was so pretty out there. 

I've been running with Casey Carpenter. We went out and around nature park then did ab workouts. :)

Sean's birthday was the 13th so Michael him Taylor and me went out to eat. It was really fun. I love those friends of mine. 

On Saturday I went on a day date with Mike! We exploded a watermelon, threw waterballoons at each other and played egg roulette. 

On Tuesday and Wednesday I got to go to the temple once Tuesday night while Leah did baptisms and I enjoyed the peace then Wednesday morning to baptize family :) 

I went out to eat by myself. My first date with myself!! Haha plus it was exactly what I wanted :) love love love

Leah is allowing me to use her computer while she's gone so I have been able to work and make my 8 semester plan. Hooray! 

Soapbox photos!

Here's my work crew!! So it could be my last day of soapbox??? Which would be sad cause it was picture day haha. These people are my fav we have so much fun. Plus they're great designers. 

Design has been hard because nothing ever seems good enough and I am never creative enough. But creativity isn't a competition. 

I decided to go home tomorrow. 

I went to Collins baseball game tonight. It was so nice! And we played around for awhile which was fun  I also saw Casey carpenter and we are going to start running again. 

I also took Maddie and Leah's pictures today and they turned out sooo cute!

Turning outward

I'm I've been so caught up in myself lately (which is reasonable, there's a lot going on) but today I really tried to turn outward. I was in Anastaiias photoshoot at work, I took off time to eat lunch with Leah, I made French toast with Leah in the morning, water colored and sent out the stuff for Jen and friend, I bought pizza and picnicked/ shared with Leah. I took Leah to porters to buy stuff for her mom. I tried going on a bike ride with Leah (fail). I let Leah join me at the gym even though when she comes nothing happens haha. I let Collin and Mikayla take my car to swing dancing so then I didn't get to go grocery shopping and had to walk to the hart building. I watched Star Wars. I played skip bo with friends (wasn't a huge service but usually I go watch friends or would be working). I chatted with Maddie instead of going to bed early. 

I called mommy (that was mostly her service to me) 

Grandma sent me a cute letter and temple name :)

Hailey texted me! It's so good catching up. 

Jed is so encouraging at work. Such a blessing. 

Ian was really friendly at the ward party which means a lot to me. No one else hardly noticed I was there

Someone fixed my bike (except it's still broken haah)

Leah brought me lunch 

Leah was extra babying me during skip no (great intentions though)

Ben from work asked me on a date. 

People are always so kind to me. I'm glad I was able to step back and help today to remember that serving others gives life and even when things are sooo stressful, they are bearable through love and kindness. 

The one where Leah falls out the window

Well she almost did. It was crazy. And so funny hahah I love her so so much. We spent the last couple hours watching friends and it's so good lately!!! Hahah we also did a safety check so we don't get kidnapped haha also we can't stop laughing right now. :) 

Also Leah is obsessed with this haha

Also I was literally pissed last night literally literally hahahah I am in shock it's so dumb

We did a lunch picnic yesterday and a dinner picnic today :) 

Breakfasts are my new favorite 

Beautiful haha 

I went to the gym tonight with Nick. Cycling and abs. It was killer and awesome and there were so many babes there tonight. That guy from west side was there. I would die if he asked me on a date. Do it boy! Haha 

I got asked on a date with Ben from university relations. I saw it coming honestly haha

Sean was out of control today at work. He needs sleep so he isn't so insane haha

Tried gyming with the hookibob distracting haha

We did family history :) 

I have two baptisms this week to do :) Hattie and Little. Yay!

It's gonna be May (me) -nsync

Leah and me went to the temple this morning. It took hours and was kind of crazy but such a blessing to go. We were able to get 15 family names done :) even tender mercies like we were only able to do 10 of the 15 confirmations and as soon as we went out a girl wanted to do some confirmations without baptisms so she did mine! It was perfect! 

I'm almost finished with these water colors! Yay :)

I think I'm allergic to my soap haha idk

I went on a date with Michael today. He's roomies and dates and us! We ate millhollow then went to the dunes and played around then played pool then what are the odds haha it was really fun and funny the whole time!

Leah and me went to Jess and Zachs open house 

They looked great of course! I'm so happy for them. We were super rushed to leave which was heartbreaking because we wanted to stay and hangout with them. I love Jess so much. So so so much. 

Squad squad

After the open house, I went to the work party at Jed's. I had to pick up like everyone hahahah. It was super fun though. I was dreading going because I wanted to stay at the open house but I'm glad I went. I feel way closer to my work mates :) 

This is from the night we hung out with Danny Clint and Dirk 

This is from when I made breakfast for dinner for Leah and me