Thoughts 2/27

Diligence and full purpose in heart. 

I don't know what makes me think I am entitled to the best of bests. I gues there's a fine line between knowing I want to be with someone who wants to be in the celestial kingdom and the other is I think highly of myself. I just want to be with someone who makes me want to be better and who makes me feel good. I want to be proud of them and be happy to be with them. I don't feel like I can feel that which is dumb because I know that we each can. It just seems scary that maybe I don't get to find love in this life. I know faith is important and I trust gods plan, it's just thoughts. 

I miss Jen. Some moments it engulfs me up. It's hard to comprehend how long we will be separated. I won't ever let myself comprehend it. It's so lonely without her to talk to. I can't imagine how she feels about it. I can't believe that everyone always feels this way maybe. I can't wait too I get my twin/sister/best friend back. 

Thursday Thursday Thursday

Prepared Leah's birthday like crazy. I'm so excited for it. It was freezing and so windy today. Also our wifi doesn't work. Sad day. I am grateful for grandmas leftovers she sent. 

I am working on the "Leah" video today :)

Jeremy drove me around. Yay!

Wednesday life

Crazy busy day from 9 to 5 but SO blessed and was able to get it all done!!

Goofing around with shlee

Sent letters to Jen 

-last voice standing 

-Zumba

-gym 

Tuesday 16th

I miss Jen. I wish she was happier. Maybe she is and we just get the feels. I am praying for her though

I went to the Temple at 8 (Nelliex4;Julia I think) then worked on information design until 2 am. So much design hahah I love it though. I can't believe I procrastinated so badly AGAIN. With no boys and not lots for work right now, I'm going to catch up and stay caught up

Having carlie here is great. I missed her and love her. We went to president Gallwix? Fireside. LOVE! Here are my thoughts 

-I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me

What do I want to leave behind?

Document thoughts feelings and wisdom. I can show people what I'm learning and have from life 

What is my Everest?

I want to change the world. How will I do this 

Everything I do on social media needs to show my beliefs 

The Holy Ghost will not compete for our attention 

"Will I be changed or just entertained?"

No more music   Tune into the spirit

Thoughts will come to your mind. Feelings will come to your heart. 

What is the Holy Ghost teaching me right now 

HAVE TO KNEEL TO PRAY

Must follow impressions in the moment

Get a feel of your location or people before speaking 

Cannot forget that I have been blessed with an overflow of blessings 

Pray to be aware of gift of discernment 

Remembering that Jen prays on her knees is the Holy Ghost bringing that to my memory 

Who do I need to talk to or 

- Jennie 

What do I need to change? 

- Prayer 

- Procrastination 

- Singing 

Moroni 7:13

Family:talk about thoughts impressions and feelings of things that happened that day 

Walking around campus or studying or class and look over room. "Who am I to sit with or talk to today?"

Any questions for help? Go to the inventor -God 

So good. I have had a struggle inside towards Maddie and Jennie and during the fireside I felt I needed to try to fix it. I hugged Jennie and hung with them. It really did help. I'm grateful for promptings. 

Leah is sleep-yelling at me. Haha lovely 

12th of feb

Such a great day!Went to the temple and did my first family name

Saw future husband again and smiled at him

I finished my project for work

You made me breakfast 

Little girl gave me candy

Listened to Broadway

Going to soda 

Watched friends 

Hung out with Leah in the day 

French bread, frosting and cookies 

Got to ride with Maddie Leah and Ryan to soda. I kind of got offended for a second but prayed and realized I should be trying to take value from what they say. 

I love them all. 

I love Robert and am so grateful he's in my life and is so smart and motivated. What a great nugget. 

Little girl gave me this on campus 

Leah and me made dinner yay!

Made it to soda!!

Hairspray with my girls as we sleep at grandmas ❤️

Thursday Feb 10

So my poster might not work but I like it anyways

Funniest thing of today. Except maybe "once upon a time there was a goldfish. And he lived all alone. The end"

I get to go get baptized for her tomorrow! I'm so excited!

Watching hilarious videos with my bae

I went to dinner and a drive with Rachel and Chance. I don't know how much try actually like me but I liked getting to know them a little better tonight. 

Wednesday FEB 10

I have been so emotional and touchy and it's so annoying but I'm grateful for Leah always being there and having such a big heart towards me ❤️ I can't think of anyone I would love to have with me all the time. 

She brought me a picnic on my crazy Wednesday 

Like seriously who does that?! It was the cutest for sure. 

Also we went to last voice standing which is OUR THING ❤️

Also I tried to teach Leah contacts hahaha

We didn't succeed but it was really funny hahah

Brady brought me Wendy fries which was sweet because 1.i was really sad and needed them and 2. I told him once that I only love Wendy fries and it was so thoughtful of him to remember that 

Leah helped me eat them. Also we bought those amazing sugar cookies and ate them all no shame

Tuesday the 9th FEB

Such a crazy homework day but Michaela was a saint and let me take pictures of her. I want to be more loving like she is. She doesn't hold grudges or gossip or make others feel bad. 

I got to email Jen! I was driving around with Brady so it was kind of hectic. 

Brady took me for a drive and Dr Pepper. He's adorable. I made him play a game where I would say a word then he would tell me the memory that came to mind then visa versa. I love getting to know people like that hahaha 

Monday 2/8

The roomies slept out in the living room. I was gone all day. But for FHE we went sledding. Maddie and Jennie didn't come. We all went and it was SO FUN until my head slammed into Collins knee then Leah's head. When we got back, Jennie and Maddie were acting so weird and rude and bitter. Welcome home right. 

Sunday the feb

I got to teach my FHE group and loved it! They're so fab. I'm grateful to be involved with family history. 

It was stupid super bowl. What a waste of the sabbath. I got to lounge around with Brady all day though soo? :)

Also I got to FaceTime Olivia an it was the greatest!!! I love her and am grateful we are friends  

Leah's surprise party

Found this gem hahaha

We threw a surprise party for Leah! I also snuck out to go on a roller skating date with Jacob and his roomies. 

FHE Ryan 

I love jerm

The first friday in feb

I sent Jen a package!!! :D full of cookies, hearts, letters, funny lotion, paintings, and more. I miss her. 

Jeremy and Leah helped so much. They're my favorites for ever. 

I made this flower arrangement for Leah because I love her and she deserved it. 

I lifted with Michael then went to dinner then found Sean and hung out with him and his roomies. I am so glad we did because they were adorable and I loved it 

3rd 4th and 5th

Leah me and Jacob went to The Burg. I think it was supposed to be a date but I invited Leah anyways haha she's the best. 

Jeremy is a great weekend friend!!

Febs

Girls are crazy. School is hard. Jen is gone. But God is good. And I am blessed. February came in with a boom :)

Jen made it to beautiful Hawaii!

Leah and a cute baby   What a great mom

First time meeting Brady

Special needs dance with my favs

From our fire 

Ward sledding party!

First FHE! I love this group