Family history thoughts

I read about the Peterson side of my family tonight. Allie and her daughters (Donna my great grandma as one) are gorgeous! And incredible people. I learned a lot by reading about them and have been inspired. 

My heart broke tonight after reading dads family history and not seeing my name mentioned once. I felt like I haven't been a memorable person. Like it doesn't even matter if I was around. I cried about it and prayed about it. I'm not upset at my dad; I am upset that I haven't been influential at all. I am now motivated to be a better person and try to be involved in others lives. 

I know I've been a huge part of Jennifer's life, as she has been in mine. I miss her more than words can express, I hope she's doing ok in Hawaii. I can't believe how much longer she has to go. :( it's the best thing she could be doing though. 

I know I've made a difference in josh and Hailey's lives as they have been my best friends ever. We were able to make high school the most glorious time without doing bad things. I love them with my whole heart. 

I know I've been a big part of Carlie's life. I love her and have grown closer to her through our struggles and imperfections. The love she has given me has shaped me SO MUCH. 

Leah has been a big part of my life and she has been for me. We teach each other so much. I learn of Christ through her. I know I have done much for her as well. 

I don't know who else's life I would be mentioned much in but I love my family so much and friends. I don't know how much I mean to them and helping them but they mean everything to me.