Jen's scare

Jen gave us quite the scare today. She is struggling so much and doesn't know what to believe anymore. I never knew someone as strong as her could doubt so much. I know she will get through this but I still worry. I have been praying so so much and fasted all day for her. I am going to the temple tomorrow. I know she knows, she just needs to remember. I love that girl so much. God does too. She can be the most incredible missionary if she will hold tight and get through this rough patch. 

I've been reading moms journal for me (2001) and this was a thing about us getting shots. Jen's always been the brace one, the more focused one. She will get through. 

I've also been reading the Peterson family history (grandma greats side). It's incredible how empowering it is to just learn more about the family before me that has planted me where I am. How blessed I am to get to know them better. I cant wait to be reunited with them again :) 

I also want to be more thoughtful in my studying. Questions to find things on my own. I've never doubted any of the truths, not really, just myself. I have a hard time believing I'll be able to fulfill everyone expected of me maybe? I don't know but I am still trying to give it what I can and more. Especially how I am noticing how quickly Saran can act.